rickyt
Member
- Time of past OR future Camino
- Planning for Sept/Oct 2023 Camino Frances
Hello all,
Today is the first time I have been back in several months. I had been planning to walk for the first time in May of this year. I had made preparations, bought equipment, pretty much everything short of buying plan tickets. Oh, and getting permission from my work to take the time off. I had stockpiled my vacation time to cover and made plans for coverage for when I was to be gone. I then made my case to the chairperson of the board of directors, my boss, to take the time off. She was at first very supportive and even sounded excited about it but said she wanted to bounce it off of the rest of the executive committee of the board. Well, a week later she came back to me to let me know that they would only allow me to take two weeks off which then rendered my Camino an impossibility. I then entered into a real funk. I had been planning for over a year and was truly excited and I felt like the rug had been pulled out from under me. I returned equipment and what I couldnt return I boxed up and put it in my basement. I stopped reading anything Camino related and I stopped coming to this forum. This occurred in February.
Today is my first day back on the forum. I am not sure why exactly I decided to come back today but, like with the camino itself, I felt drawn. I am still pretty salty about not being able to go and I am trying to come to terms with the reality that the only way I am going to be able to is to find another job and go during the time in between or wait until I retire. Neither of which are very appealing options, but it is what it is I suppose.
Which brings me to the point of this long winded post. Have any of you every gone through something similar? If so, how did you process it? I do not want to spend my time bitter and angry but every time I think about it, that is what happens. So, any of you zen masters out there have any advice for this wannabee pilgrim?
Today is the first time I have been back in several months. I had been planning to walk for the first time in May of this year. I had made preparations, bought equipment, pretty much everything short of buying plan tickets. Oh, and getting permission from my work to take the time off. I had stockpiled my vacation time to cover and made plans for coverage for when I was to be gone. I then made my case to the chairperson of the board of directors, my boss, to take the time off. She was at first very supportive and even sounded excited about it but said she wanted to bounce it off of the rest of the executive committee of the board. Well, a week later she came back to me to let me know that they would only allow me to take two weeks off which then rendered my Camino an impossibility. I then entered into a real funk. I had been planning for over a year and was truly excited and I felt like the rug had been pulled out from under me. I returned equipment and what I couldnt return I boxed up and put it in my basement. I stopped reading anything Camino related and I stopped coming to this forum. This occurred in February.
Today is my first day back on the forum. I am not sure why exactly I decided to come back today but, like with the camino itself, I felt drawn. I am still pretty salty about not being able to go and I am trying to come to terms with the reality that the only way I am going to be able to is to find another job and go during the time in between or wait until I retire. Neither of which are very appealing options, but it is what it is I suppose.
Which brings me to the point of this long winded post. Have any of you every gone through something similar? If so, how did you process it? I do not want to spend my time bitter and angry but every time I think about it, that is what happens. So, any of you zen masters out there have any advice for this wannabee pilgrim?