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I am with you Chrissy, you are not alone. Today I would also have been on my 10th day walking the Frances, arriving in Ventosa. I've also been in a real funk lately; feeling down. depressed, angry and sad. The rain here in VA isn't helping much either. We'll get over it I'm sure, but it's hard to not be disappointed. You're not alone!Hello all,
I'm not having a very good day. It is 45°F, extremely windy and raining on and off so I've been cooped up inside, which has not helped my mood.
I was very disappointed, not "devastated", (oh no, not me), when my Spring camino to leave on April 19th was canceled. I'd been gone from home every spring for five years straight on these most special adventures in my retirement and they have each been the highlight of that particular year, surpassing all other planned vacations.
This time I was bringing two newbie family members and had everything planned out ahead of time. At first, I tried to accept this loss, but now I am starting to plummet. I feel sad, in a funk, flat, and unmotivated. Heck, I'm supposed to be nearly ten days into my walk in Spain as I type this. I still walk three miles most days on my local trail, but have no desire to increase the distance like I usually did with enthusiasm during the month before I was set to depart.
I have a really good, easy life at home and I do not live alone, but I miss getting together with my girlfriends for lunch out or to exercise with them. I'm sure all this self isolation is contributing to my melancholy feelings.
I want to say that I truly admire those of you who are participating on the varying threads by walking virtual caminos, zoom meetings, and even researching obscure locations in the movie "The Way". I wish I were enthused in the same way as many of you are, but I am not.
I guess I'm having a pity party today and feeling kind of "lost", and yes, I know I am acting spoiled and have a selfish outlook... maybe tomorrow will be better.
I do not usually share a depressed side of who I am, especially on a public forum, but oh well, today I am and you are my Camino family. Thankfully I am not normally given to despair like this. I hope my camino walking days will not be permanently over. I know there are others who most likely share some similar feelings, so know I am not the only one...we all are feeling some loss of varying degrees.
Thanks for listening.
Hello all,
I'm not having a very good day. It is 45°F, extremely windy and raining on and off so I've been cooped up inside, which has not helped my mood.
I was very disappointed, not "devastated", (oh no, not me), when my Spring camino to leave on April 19th was canceled. I'd been gone from home every spring for five years straight on these most special adventures in my retirement and they have each been the highlight of that particular year, surpassing all other planned vacations.
This time I was bringing two newbie family members and had everything planned out ahead of time. At first, I tried to accept this loss, but now I am starting to plummet. I feel sad, in a funk, flat, and unmotivated. Heck, I'm supposed to be nearly ten days into my walk in Spain as I type this. I still walk three miles most days on my local trail, but have no desire to increase the distance like I usually did with enthusiasm during the month before I was set to depart.
I have a really good, easy life at home and I do not live alone, but I miss getting together with my girlfriends for lunch out or to exercise with them. I'm sure all this self isolation is contributing to my melancholy feelings.
I want to say that I truly admire those of you who are participating on the varying threads by walking virtual caminos, zoom meetings, and even researching obscure locations in the movie "The Way". I wish I were enthused in the same way as many of you are, but I am not.
I guess I'm having a pity party today and feeling kind of "lost", and yes, I know I am acting spoiled and have a selfish outlook... maybe tomorrow will be better.
I do not usually share a depressed side of who I am, especially on a public forum, but oh well, today I am and you are my Camino family. Thankfully I am not normally given to despair like this. I hope my camino walking days will not be permanently over. I know there are others who most likely share some similar feelings, so know I am not the only one...we all are feeling some loss of varying degrees.
Thanks for listening.
It is very nice for me to feel "not all alone", so thanks for being honest and sharing your thoughts on this thread.I am with you Chrissy, you are not alone. Today I would also have been on my 10th day walking the Frances, arriving in Ventosa. I've also been in a real funk lately; feeling down. depressed, angry and sad. The rain here in VA isn't helping much either. We'll get over it I'm sure, but it's hard to not be disappointed. You're not alone!
What an upbeat person you are @Ignacio! We all can use a big dose of your enthusiasm. You have made me smile!Hi Camino Chrissy,
Someone (?) told me that "They'll be days like these.". That may not make it easier for you but let me give it
a try.
Think about this: Covid-19 could have waited for YOU and postpone it's arrival until the last week of April or the 1st week of May when you've been ON the Camino! Then you would have been in dire straits. Since Spain was one of the first and heavily affected European countries, YOU could have been infected and not know it at the time. Now think about the logistics of returning to your country, think how difficult that would have been, having to secure and safely travel from Spain back to your country, while all along being exposed to getting the nasty virus.
Yeah, Yeah, I know that you're probably a little down and probably suffering from "Cabin fever", if you're one of the smart ones and practice self-imposed isolation. If you are in isolation, it's not uncommon that one of the side effects it's some form of a depressive state.
But think about it, your situation could have been totally different than what it is TODAY! Now be HAPPY! and start to mentally and physically prepare yourself for your next CAMINO. Go out and walk to exhaustion because YOU CAN! When you get negative depressive thoughts, visualize yourself walking on that BEAUTIFUL SCENERY that you'll experience in your next CAMINO. Think of how beautiful it is to get up early in the morning, full of energy and READY to tackle that day's 20 km walk, of course after having your "tostado and cafe con leche".
Personally, I KNOW that as soon as it's possible I will began to prepare myself for MY NEXT CAMINO, I am not thinking about dying I am thinking about living, doing the beautiful things that make me HAPPY! So as the Aussies would say: " Come on Mate, Cheer on and let's take THAT BEAUTIFUL WALK IN LIFE, BECAUSE WE CAN!"
Cheers and BUEN CAMINO!!!
Ignacio
Hi Camino Chrissy,
Someone (?) told me that "They'll be days like these.". That may not make it easier for you but let me give it
a try.
Think about this: Covid-19 could have waited for YOU and postpone it's arrival until the last week of April or the 1st week of May when you've been ON the Camino! Then you would have been in dire straits. Since Spain was one of the first and heavily affected European countries, YOU could have been infected and not know it at the time. Now think about the logistics of returning to your country, think how difficult that would have been, having to secure and safely travel from Spain back to your country, while all along being exposed to getting the nasty virus.
Yeah, Yeah, I know that you're probably a little down and probably suffering from "Cabin fever", if you're one of the smart ones and practice self-imposed isolation. If you are in isolation, it's not uncommon that one of the side effects it's some form of a depressive state.
But think about it, your situation could have been totally different than what it is TODAY! Now be HAPPY! and start to mentally and physically prepare yourself for your next CAMINO. Go out and walk to exhaustion because YOU CAN! When you get negative depressive thoughts, visualize yourself walking on that BEAUTIFUL SCENERY that you'll experience in your next CAMINO. Think of how beautiful it is to get up early in the morning, full of energy and READY to tackle that day's 20 km walk, of course after having your "tostado and cafe con leche".
Personally, I KNOW that as soon as it's possible I will began to prepare myself for MY NEXT CAMINO, I am not thinking about dying I am thinking about living, doing the beautiful things that make me HAPPY! So as the Aussies would say: " Come on Mate, Cheer on and let's take THAT BEAUTIFUL WALK IN LIFE, BECAUSE WE CAN!"
Cheers and BUEN CAMINO!!!
Ignacio
I will keep this simple. Today, when I take my daily walk on the local trail, you will be in my prayers. UltreĂŻa! et Suseia!Hello all,
I'm not having a very good day. It is 45°F, extremely windy and raining on and off so I've been cooped up inside, which has not helped my mood.
I was very disappointed, not "devastated", (oh no, not me), when my Spring camino to leave on April 19th was canceled. I'd been gone from home every spring for five years straight on these most special adventures in my retirement and they have each been the highlight of that particular year, surpassing all other planned vacations.
This time I was bringing two newbie family members and had everything planned out ahead of time. At first, I tried to accept this loss, but now I am starting to plummet. I feel sad, in a funk, flat, and unmotivated. Heck, I'm supposed to be nearly ten days into my walk in Spain as I type this. I still walk three miles most days on my local trail, but have no desire to increase the distance like I usually did with enthusiasm during the month before I was set to depart.
I have a really good, easy life at home and I do not live alone, but I miss getting together with my girlfriends for lunch out or to exercise with them. I'm sure all this self isolation is contributing to my melancholy feelings.
I want to say that I truly admire those of you who are participating on the varying threads by walking virtual caminos, zoom meetings, and even researching obscure locations in the movie "The Way". I wish I were enthused in the same way as many of you are, but I am not.
I guess I'm having a pity party today and feeling kind of "lost", and yes, I know I am acting spoiled and have a selfish outlook... maybe tomorrow will be better.
I do not usually share a depressed side of who I am, especially on a public forum, but oh well, today I am and you are my Camino family. Thankfully I am not normally given to despair like this. I hope my camino walking days will not be permanently over. I know there are others who most likely share some similar feelings, so know I am not the only one...we all are feeling some loss of varying degrees.
Thanks for listening.
I am with you Chrissy, you are not alone. Today I would also have been on my 10th day walking the Frances, arriving in Ventosa. I've also been in a real funk lately; feeling down. depressed, angry and sad. The rain here in VA isn't helping much either. We'll get over it I'm sure, but it's hard to not be disappointed. You're not alone!
Aaargh. I really feel for you. I had hoped to have done my first week on the Via de La Plata starting from Seville by now. If any sense of normality can return by September I hope that I can go to Gijon with a group from my village to do a tranche of the Norte, but who knows?Hello all,
I'm not having a very good day. It is 45°F, extremely windy and raining on and off so I've been cooped up inside, which has not helped my mood.
I was very disappointed, not "devastated", (oh no, not me), when my Spring camino to leave on April 19th was canceled. I'd been gone from home every spring for five years straight on these most special adventures in my retirement and they have each been the highlight of that particular year, surpassing all other planned vacations.
This time I was bringing two newbie family members and had everything planned out ahead of time. At first, I tried to accept this loss, but now I am starting to plummet. I feel sad, in a funk, flat, and unmotivated. Heck, I'm supposed to be nearly ten days into my walk in Spain as I type this. I still walk three miles most days on my local trail, but have no desire to increase the distance like I usually did with enthusiasm during the month before I was set to depart.
I have a really good, easy life at home and I do not live alone, but I miss getting together with my girlfriends for lunch out or to exercise with them. I'm sure all this self isolation is contributing to my melancholy feelings.
I want to say that I truly admire those of you who are participating on the varying threads by walking virtual caminos, zoom meetings, and even researching obscure locations in the movie "The Way". I wish I were enthused in the same way as many of you are, but I am not.
I guess I'm having a pity party today and feeling kind of "lost", and yes, I know I am acting spoiled and have a selfish outlook... maybe tomorrow will be better.
I do not usually share a depressed side of who I am, especially on a public forum, but oh well, today I am and you are my Camino family. Thankfully I am not normally given to despair like this. I hope my camino walking days will not be permanently over. I know there are others who most likely share some similar feelings, so know I am not the only one...we all are feeling some loss of varying degrees.
Thanks for listening.
I too, cherish all of my camino photos, organized into each trip, and love reliving the memories. Thank you for your kind reply.Aaargh. I really feel for you. I had hoped to have done my first week on the Via de La Plata starting from Seville by now. If any sense of normality can return by September I hope that I can go to Gijon with a group from my village to do a tranche of the Norte, but who knows?
When I feel the Camino (lack thereof) blues then I find that it is helpful to review my previous trips by reference both to the tangible things - such as photos or any of the little knick knacks that we all bring back with us - or the intangibles - like little incidents that happened to us, unforgettable things that we have seen, and most preciously, the people who we have met on the Camino. They can be people we touched upon briefly but memorably or real and lasting friends with whom we form bonds that cannot be broken across time or space.
I really feel your pain about not being able to initiate your 2 newbie relatives into the joys of the Camino. I harbour silly probably unattainable dreams of being able to do some part of some Camino with my wife's grandchildren. Now that would be a Camino.
I hope that some of this drivel helps and that you can bounce back and start planning your next visit to the Camino.
Buen Camino.
Hello all,
I'm not having a very good day. It is 45°F, extremely windy and raining on and off so I've been cooped up inside, which has not helped my mood.
I was very disappointed, not "devastated", (oh no, not me), when my Spring camino to leave on April 19th was canceled. I'd been gone from home every spring for five years straight on these most special adventures in my retirement and they have each been the highlight of that particular year, surpassing all other planned vacations.
This time I was bringing two newbie family members and had everything planned out ahead of time. At first, I tried to accept this loss, but now I am starting to plummet. I feel sad, in a funk, flat, and unmotivated. Heck, I'm supposed to be nearly ten days into my walk in Spain as I type this. I still walk three miles most days on my local trail, but have no desire to increase the distance like I usually did with enthusiasm during the month before I was set to depart.
I have a really good, easy life at home and I do not live alone, but I miss getting together with my girlfriends for lunch out or to exercise with them. I'm sure all this self isolation is contributing to my melancholy feelings.
I want to say that I truly admire those of you who are participating on the varying threads by walking virtual caminos, zoom meetings, and even researching obscure locations in the movie "The Way". I wish I were enthused in the same way as many of you are, but I am not.
I guess I'm having a pity party today and feeling kind of "lost", and yes, I know I am acting spoiled and have a selfish outlook... maybe tomorrow will be better.
I do not usually share a depressed side of who I am, especially on a public forum, but oh well, today I am and you are my Camino family. Thankfully I am not normally given to despair like this. I hope my camino walking days will not be permanently over. I know there are others who most likely share some similar feelings, so know I am not the only one...we all are feeling some loss of varying degrees.
Thanks for listening.
Yes. Me too. I want to plan another walk but feel, whats the point yet? When oh when can we travel again?? still in lockdown here. Its depressing alright.Hello all,
I'm not having a very good day. It is 45°F, extremely windy and raining on and off so I've been cooped up inside, which has not helped my mood.
I was very disappointed, not "devastated", (oh no, not me), when my Spring camino to leave on April 19th was canceled. I'd been gone from home every spring for five years straight on these most special adventures in my retirement and they have each been the highlight of that particular year, surpassing all other planned vacations.
This time I was bringing two newbie family members and had everything planned out ahead of time. At first, I tried to accept this loss, but now I am starting to plummet. I feel sad, in a funk, flat, and unmotivated. Heck, I'm supposed to be nearly ten days into my walk in Spain as I type this. I still walk three miles most days on my local trail, but have no desire to increase the distance like I usually did with enthusiasm during the month before I was set to depart.
I have a really good, easy life at home and I do not live alone, but I miss getting together with my girlfriends for lunch out or to exercise with them. I'm sure all this self isolation is contributing to my melancholy feelings.
I want to say that I truly admire those of you who are participating on the varying threads by walking virtual caminos, zoom meetings, and even researching obscure locations in the movie "The Way". I wish I were enthused in the same way as many of you are, but I am not.
I guess I'm having a pity party today and feeling kind of "lost", and yes, I know I am acting spoiled and have a selfish outlook... maybe tomorrow will be better.
I do not usually share a depressed side of who I am, especially on a public forum, but oh well, today I am and you are my Camino family. Thankfully I am not normally given to despair like this. I hope my camino walking days will not be permanently over. I know there are others who most likely share some similar feelings, so know I am not the only one...we all are feeling some loss of varying degrees.
Thanks for listening.
Oh, thank you for your words and reminding me of my own! I am trying to move forward one step at a time...one day at a time.Camino Chrissy
Thanks for your heart-felt post - I love when people just name and claim what they truly feel without trying to gloss over or cover it or hurry one emotion to get to the next one. We feel whatever we feel.
I once read some beautiful wise words which might help... “take one step forward...then keep on walking” Sound familiar?
Thank you, Marbe, I appreciate your words. An interesting perspective and lots of truth in what you say. Most every response has been a comfort to me and validated my struggle. The best part is that many others reading this thread have been benefited by all the replies, too.HI Chrissy, I think most of us share many of the same feelings you are expressing. Thank you for acknowledging where you are right now.
For many of us, the camino requires preparation. Building up stamina, planning routes, reviewing new and weighing equipment, packing, repacking, carefully considering best clothes and new technology to improve our journey, as well as the best time of year to go for this particularly planned route and current circumstances. And we plan our likely stops, towns, albergues, restaurants, visits, camino masses, where are there ATMs...and so many other details.
And we consider who are we journeying with this time...alone, or with a new friend or family member? Will we be compatible as walking partners? There is an awful lot of physical and psychic energy that goes into planning your caminos. And many of us joyfully spend months getting ready.
So I think plummeting, as you describe it, is normal, and a great descriptor of our experience from thinking we are going to the mountain but suddenly find ourselves in Jerusalem. And this loss is exacerbated by our need for distancing. What a let down we all have had. Indeed, our immunity system also loses the gains we experience during those exercise periods...and that is not happening right now.
You are not alone, Chrissy, most of us are or have been on a similar journey.
I really believe, in many ways we are on a camino right now. Different circumstances for sure. You have been able to assess where you are Chrissy, that is the first step. Knowing where you are can help you gain direction as to where you want to go. No we can not go to SdC right now. And we will not be doing caminos in Spain for a while.
Maybe God is calling us to find our way to her/him via a different route and different mode. Maybe it is not walking so many miles per day. Though, walking some everday is good for your health, for sure. What about listening to your inner voice and trusting that at this moment God is leading us to new horizons?