Walking in the dark at home! I like that idea, too."Who am I?" is a big unanswered question for me too. I like to walk in the dark when I need that kick of pretending I am back there-scenery is anything you want it to be in the dark. I was there in October too, and like you I am feeling a level of nostalgia unlike ever before. What they tried to tell us and we failed to truly understand, is that the "real camino" starts after we finish, and I think we're in the now in an uphill section. Re-entry has not been pretty for me either. The Camino is a life changing event and coping can be difficult. Just like you'd reach out to fix your blisters if they got too bad, there's no shame in reaching out to a mental health professional if your mind feels wrong.