Are you not a 'proper pilgrim'? Without breaking forum rules re religious posts - just being theoretical here ...
if there is one intelligence, one God, universal, that manifests this universe and is interested in it and there are 'special' or 'sacred' places and he calls certain people to go to them .. then surely all who arrive on Camino, for whatever reason they
think they are there for, are 'called'?
and, probably without quite knowing why, they have answered .... surely so .... ??
As for refugios and pilgrim passports - the pilgrim passport is a record of your journey towards Santiago and St James .. it is also necessary for staying in refugios. It isn't the Spanish Inquisition, no one would be rude enough or dogmatic enough to question why you are on Camino and/or if you are 'genuine'- whatever they think that may be and there are no other requirements to stay in a refugio other than having a current pilgrim passport.
Though what you do with that passport on arrival in Santiago is a question that you must answer from deep within your heart.
and were I to be you I would be quite prepared to give up my bed to another in more need, as I am sure you would too.
Crikey - I have met Buddhists and Jews on Camino - let alone atheists and agnostics - not been aware of certified pagans yet
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I remember asking an old Irish catholic priest, a Monseigneur, if it was ok to attend his church, me being Unitarian and therefore heretic - his answer? "Sure, come on in, all are welcome here, heretics and all"
So don't fear being judged - it is a specifically Christian concept that we do not judge.
so Buen Camino!
p.s. - relax, enjoy, have fun .. maybe go into a church or two? and no one will arrive from the Spanish inquisition when you present your pilgrim passport