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I need to apologize to forum members for my ranting post upon my return.
I have been in a state of exhaustion and shock since March 12 when we made the decision to get out of Spain and to get back home.
My great disappointment, combined with physical and mental and emotional exhaustion, my feelings of anger at this virus, shock at how quickly things escalated, inadequacy at another failed attempt at completion of this route, stupidity for going at all, frustration at airlines for raising prices instead of being helpful, fear for the lives of those in the line of infection, worries about my elderly mother and not being able to reach her now because I have to self-isolate, and whether I will be able to get home for my scheduled double mastectomy if the state borders close, have all just pretty much driven me insane the past few days.
I spent most of the day in an armchair in shock, trying to process it all, wondering about the outcome.
I realize by posting what was going on in my head, I was being selfish and not being helpful.
Thank you to those who offered kind words instead of judgment.
I will try to do better.
I have been in a state of exhaustion and shock since March 12 when we made the decision to get out of Spain and to get back home.
My great disappointment, combined with physical and mental and emotional exhaustion, my feelings of anger at this virus, shock at how quickly things escalated, inadequacy at another failed attempt at completion of this route, stupidity for going at all, frustration at airlines for raising prices instead of being helpful, fear for the lives of those in the line of infection, worries about my elderly mother and not being able to reach her now because I have to self-isolate, and whether I will be able to get home for my scheduled double mastectomy if the state borders close, have all just pretty much driven me insane the past few days.
I spent most of the day in an armchair in shock, trying to process it all, wondering about the outcome.
I realize by posting what was going on in my head, I was being selfish and not being helpful.
Thank you to those who offered kind words instead of judgment.
I will try to do better.