Hi TammyLynn,
Excuse the ramblings here. There is much to say after a long day. I'd like to try.
Many of us could experience the same no matter best friend, sibling, even parent or spouse. Yes, different levels. The Camino brings us to different levels which we can not entirely explain to one who has not walked.
There are those of us who have made unhealthy, toxic decisions ourselves. However, we thankfully find ourselves while walking enough to see what we're doing to our own lives. Just the same, we see that in others and realize they have no room in our lives as we've stopped walking their path, walked ahead, walked away. What I mean to say is it's quite difficult to re-enter our "normal" lives post-Camino, and having such people in our lives makes it even worse especially when it is someone we hold dear, close to heart.
I too have had your awkward feeling and it does feel incredibly horrible. It is a contradiction of sorts as we've come home with an entirely different way of thinking, yet there are those who suck the life out of us no matter how supportive we are. Perhaps these loved ones are worth really fighting for, but we all know what it's like to fight for one who doesn't want to fight on his/her own to see the beauty in life. It's good to question. You are questioning your own quality of life without unnecessary angst.
It doesn't seem as if you are judging at all. I like how you are fighting for yourself; the person you may have found on the Camino.
Keep a smile,
Simeon