Angie94
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I never thought of myself as an over-controlling person or one who tries to complicate the heck out of situations...this journey I'm about to take may prove that to be a false view of self. (taking my 1st camino May/June of 2016)
I have worried, fussed over, fretted, been fearful, anxious, and definitely over analyzed everything about this trip.
When I think about the thousands of pilgrims before modern times who made this trek
1) without the aid of 'special footwear', cell phones, GPS, top of the line backpacks and gear, etc..
2) without wicking/quick dry clothing
3) no ability to tap into the experience of others on a daily basis - who by the way offer constant assurance and support that things will be okay
4) did not have the comfort of knowing there is always transportation on hand if needed, or means to send the pack ahead
5) no ability to stay in contact with family and friends - on a daily basis if desired
6) did not have guaranteed accommodations out of the elements
7) did not have the luxury and assurance that a hot meal awaited them at the end of each days jaunt.
8) had to endure the fear that they may actually get killed because of taking this pilgrimage.
9) who had to walk ALL THE WAY BACK home once arriving in Santiago.
When I think of these things I become irritated with my thinking and feel like such a lightweight in comparison to those brave people. I am not trying to "beat myself up" I am just trying to gain some perspective with this whole overanalyzing, self-absorbed thought process I seem to engage in about this journey.
I am beginning to bore myself with it!
I think I will get busy with some volunteer activities I used to do...get out of my own head for awhile.
I agree with this. I want to make sure that everything I bring is the right thing and useful, because of the weight issue. I've ordered about 8 pairs of shoes from Amazon and Zappos so far in search of the perfect pair.Angie94, maybe the over-analyzing and obsessing has do do with our need to take so little, and pack so light? Just like it's more difficult to write well with fewer words, it's harder to travel with less stuff (not when walking, but when in the figuring-it-out stage.) For me, "backpacking light" is a new skill. I'm guessing that once the first hike is under our belt, there will be much less fretting, fussing, and worrying the next time. I'm looking forward to NOT planning anymore once I'm on my way April 15th.
I never thought of myself as an over-controlling person or one who tries to complicate the heck out of situations...this journey I'm about to take may prove that to be a false view of self. (taking my 1st camino May/June of 2016)
I have worried, fussed over, fretted, been fearful, anxious, and definitely over analyzed everything about this trip.
I never thought of myself as an over-controlling person or one who tries to complicate the heck out of situations...this journey I'm about to take may prove that to be a false view of self. (taking my 1st camino May/June of 2016)
I have worried, fussed over, fretted, been fearful, anxious, and definitely over analyzed everything about this trip.
When I think about the thousands of pilgrims before modern times who made this trek
1) without the aid of 'special footwear', cell phones, GPS, top of the line backpacks and gear, etc..
2) without wicking/quick dry clothing
3) no ability to tap into the experience of others on a daily basis - who by the way offer constant assurance and support that things will be okay
4) did not have the comfort of knowing there is always transportation on hand if needed, or means to send the pack ahead
5) no ability to stay in contact with family and friends - on a daily basis if desired
6) did not have guaranteed accommodations out of the elements
7) did not have the luxury and assurance that a hot meal awaited them at the end of each days jaunt.
8) had to endure the fear that they may actually get killed because of taking this pilgrimage.
9) who had to walk ALL THE WAY BACK home once arriving in Santiago.
When I think of these things I become irritated with my thinking and feel like such a lightweight in comparison to those brave people. I am not trying to "beat myself up" I am just trying to gain some perspective with this whole overanalyzing, self-absorbed thought process I seem to engage in about this journey.
I am beginning to bore myself with it!
I think I will get busy with some volunteer activities I used to do...get out of my own head for awhile.
i just got the best gear i could and set off in the pouring rain on september 1st walking 3 1/2 hours up to orrisson. if they could transcribe my thoughts that were buzzing through my head it would be a scary thing to read...but its a beautiful journey and just unfolds little by little, day by day, so just keep your head up and move forward...its the best thing i have ever done.I never thought of myself as an over-controlling person or one who tries to complicate the heck out of situations...this journey I'm about to take may prove that to be a false view of self. (taking my 1st camino May/June of 2016)
I have worried, fussed over, fretted, been fearful, anxious, and definitely over analyzed everything about this trip.
When I think about the thousands of pilgrims before modern times who made this trek
1) without the aid of 'special footwear', cell phones, GPS, top of the line backpacks and gear, etc..
2) without wicking/quick dry clothing
3) no ability to tap into the experience of others on a daily basis - who by the way offer constant assurance and support that things will be okay
4) did not have the comfort of knowing there is always transportation on hand if needed, or means to send the pack ahead
5) no ability to stay in contact with family and friends - on a daily basis if desired
6) did not have guaranteed accommodations out of the elements
7) did not have the luxury and assurance that a hot meal awaited them at the end of each days jaunt.
8) had to endure the fear that they may actually get killed because of taking this pilgrimage.
9) who had to walk ALL THE WAY BACK home once arriving in Santiago.
When I think of these things I become irritated with my thinking and feel like such a lightweight in comparison to those brave people. I am not trying to "beat myself up" I am just trying to gain some perspective with this whole overanalyzing, self-absorbed thought process I seem to engage in about this journey.
I am beginning to bore myself with it!
I think I will get busy with some volunteer activities I used to do...get out of my own head for awhile.
Ancient pilgrims would have taken the bus if there'd been one.
I never thought of myself as an over-controlling person or one who tries to complicate the heck out of situations...this journey I'm about to take may prove that to be a false view of self. (taking my 1st camino May/June of 2016)
I have worried, fussed over, fretted, been fearful, anxious, and definitely over analyzed everything about this trip.
When I think about the thousands of pilgrims before modern times who made this trek
1) without the aid of 'special footwear', cell phones, GPS, top of the line backpacks and gear, etc..
2) without wicking/quick dry clothing
3) no ability to tap into the experience of others on a daily basis - who by the way offer constant assurance and support that things will be okay
4) did not have the comfort of knowing there is always transportation on hand if needed, or means to send the pack ahead
5) no ability to stay in contact with family and friends - on a daily basis if desired
6) did not have guaranteed accommodations out of the elements
7) did not have the luxury and assurance that a hot meal awaited them at the end of each days jaunt.
8) had to endure the fear that they may actually get killed because of taking this pilgrimage.
9) who had to walk ALL THE WAY BACK home once arriving in Santiago.
When I think of these things I become irritated with my thinking and feel like such a lightweight in comparison to those brave people. I am not trying to "beat myself up" I am just trying to gain some perspective with this whole overanalyzing, self-absorbed thought process I seem to engage in about this journey.
I am beginning to bore myself with it!
I think I will get busy with some volunteer activities I used to do...get out of my own head for awhile.
That's exactly how I've been feeling over the last week. I'm tired of thinking about it! Maybe that's a sign that we are ready with the details, and now it's time to get our hearts in order. I've decided that what I have now is what I am taking. No more checking out other shoes, socks, shirts, hiking pants. Just pack it all and put it away for a few more weeks. I am also having some adrenaline surges of "what the heck am I doing?" Maybe that is what others go through too.I never thought of myself as an over-controlling person or one who tries to complicate the heck out of situations...this journey I'm about to take may prove that to be a false view of self. (taking my 1st camino May/June of 2016)
I have worried, fussed over, fretted, been fearful, anxious, and definitely over analyzed everything about this trip.
When I think about the thousands of pilgrims before modern times who made this trek
1) without the aid of 'special footwear', cell phones, GPS, top of the line backpacks and gear, etc..
2) without wicking/quick dry clothing
3) no ability to tap into the experience of others on a daily basis - who by the way offer constant assurance and support that things will be okay
4) did not have the comfort of knowing there is always transportation on hand if needed, or means to send the pack ahead
5) no ability to stay in contact with family and friends - on a daily basis if desired
6) did not have guaranteed accommodations out of the elements
7) did not have the luxury and assurance that a hot meal awaited them at the end of each days jaunt.
8) had to endure the fear that they may actually get killed because of taking this pilgrimage.
9) who had to walk ALL THE WAY BACK home once arriving in Santiago.
When I think of these things I become irritated with my thinking and feel like such a lightweight in comparison to those brave people. I am not trying to "beat myself up" I am just trying to gain some perspective with this whole overanalyzing, self-absorbed thought process I seem to engage in about this journey.
I am beginning to bore myself with it!
I think I will get busy with some volunteer activities I used to do...get out of my own head for awhile.
I'm with you on this! I am putting it all away and going with what I got when it comes times. I am ALSO feeling those moments of "what in the heck am I doing? followed by a brief surge of FEAR...but so many have stated that things will be fine - (but my mind drifts over to "yeah, but what all those pilgrims where things WEREN'T fine. I wanna hear from THEM!" hahaha....)No more checking out other shoes, socks, shirts, hiking pants. Just pack it all and put it away for a few more weeks. I am also having some adrenaline surges of "what the heck am I doing?"
Wow.......that was superb. Typically I can't understand poetry worth a darn...I have tried and tried to read poetry and I just don't get it. Seems like I can never understand what they are trying to say.Is it a measure of comfort
When facing the unknown
To foster the feeling of the familiar
So that the dark
Is less so...
So that the road
Is more easily traveled
So that the unknown
Is balanced by the familar.
Familiar..in Latin Famili ar
Of Family
Comfort
Home.
Once the darkness has been braved
And the wind and rain touched you
Then the road to freedom opens doors.
The more you leave of the Familiar at home
The more Home..the road becomes.
These are the thoughts of this unfettered Nomad.
Uncluttered and ready to see where the sun goes..and where its been.
The old familiar
Is right there inside you.
Always touchable
Always ready for the day
Clothes and shoes dont make the traveler
The road doesnt make the pilgrim
The Way..is laid out inside you
Which Way...you go, is up to you.
Gird your life to the sticking place
Spend it freely..and wisely
Go!
I agree. But I don't think everything is supposed to be fine on this Camino. Where is the challenge and growth in that? We should feel fear, cold, pain, being uncomfortable at times, so we can overcome and grow from it. We will learn to appreciate our warm homes, plenty of food and all the other creature comforts we tend to take a little for granted, when we live too soft. I'm anxious to get to know myself again, not as someones wife, Mother, Grandmother, just me...just Judy!! That's why I am coming on my own, to make all my own decisions and plans and to take responsibility for any bad decisions. I'm ready for the challenge, and so are you!!I'm with you on this! I am putting it all away and going with what I got when it comes times. I am ALSO feeling those moments of "what in the heck am I doing? followed by a brief surge of FEAR...but so many have stated that things will be fine - (but my mind drifts over to "yeah, but what all those pilgrims where things WEREN'T fine. I wanna hear from THEM!" hahaha....)
I sometimes feel like we're only getting one side of the coin on here!
But then again "do I really want to know about the times that weren't fine?" I mean really what for?? it will just make the anxiety worse.
Could not have said it better - enjoy every step even though you may be tired sore or whatever - remember the many who would so like to do what we are privileged to do but cannot because of all sorts of reasons. Buen CaminoI love your post and just know that you are going to have a wonderful Camino. Can I suggest 2 things (which you may well have already thought of): 1) I'm a terrible over analyser myself (so renowned for it had been remembered in Santiago for 38 years). Try to step out with a clear mind without "how I want my Camino to be". Let it come round the corner to you, over the bridge, out from the woods - you can't see magic by looking straight at it. 2) as well as thinking about the thousands of pilgrims who travelled through it, think (look, listen, smell, touch) about the people whose land you are walking through. This is their land, their Patron saint, their culture and there are other stories there.
What an awesome read to start the day!Angie
Your life is your Poetry.
How you live? The Warp
What you do with your life..The Weft
Your life a Tapestry of where youve been
All the shaded walks of the easy times
The harsh light of the sun? Your Reality when times were not so easy.
The Colors? Those who are close to you
The fabric..your decisions
Walk forth in comfort knowing your picture is still not done, still weaving a new part.
Feel the wind
Taste the good waters
Feel the ache in your back
Feel your achey feet.
It is all Life.
Sing, dance about yourself when the utter Joy takes you
Bow your head before the thunder
While the Lightning courses your Veins!
10.000 people talk
1 Walks
10.000 people dare
1 succeeds
10.000 people silent
1....sings.
Go forth unafraid Angie
Take this Life and take a fierce Joy at daring to Live less Ordinary!
That is your everlasting Poetry!
I understand your frustrations! Fifteen years ago, just minutes before I was about to begin a cross-country drive all by myself on a snowy mid-December morning, a friend said, "Don't forget to breathe!" Her voice and her words of wisdom always come back to me when I am feeling fearful. I breathe and it works--I'm always brought right back into the moment, and feel released. So, Angie...Don't forget to breathe! It really will all work out!
I'm with you Angie! We leave April 20th. There's more to read, more to do, more to buy. I will never feel ready. MaryI never thought of myself as an over-controlling person or one who tries to complicate the heck out of situations...this journey I'm about to take may prove that to be a false view of self. (taking my 1st camino May/June of 2016)
I have worried, fussed over, fretted, been fearful, anxious, and definitely over analyzed everything about this trip.
Beautiful and inspiring!Is it a measure of comfort
When facing the unknown
To foster the feeling of the familiar
So that the dark
Is less so...
So that the road
Is more easily traveled
So that the unknown
Is balanced by the familar.
Familiar..in Latin Famili ar
Of Family
Comfort
Home.
Once the darkness has been braved
And the wind and rain touched you
Then the road to freedom opens doors.
The more you leave of the Familiar at home
The more Home..the road becomes.
These are the thoughts of this unfettered Nomad.
Uncluttered and ready to see where the sun goes..and where its been.
The old familiar
Is right there inside you.
Always touchable
Always ready for the day
Clothes and shoes dont make the traveler
The road doesnt make the pilgrim
The Way..is laid out inside you
Which Way...you go, is up to you.
Gird your life to the sticking place
Spend it freely..and wisely
Go!
Yes you can still do things "old school" but it doesn't make the experience any better. In fact, unless you are a bit of a masochist, doing your Camino "old school" will probably leave you with a few regrets by the time you complete it.
Angie: Thank you for your post and opening up such an interesting discussion. I leave in 5 days and have been walking all week with my backpack fully packed for the Camino. (I have been training for 4 months with this pack carrying about 15-17 lbs including water) Now that I have it packed it weighs 16 lbs without water and all week it hurts my lower back once I get to about 9-10 miles. I have been to REI twice to have it fitted, and they always say it is fitted. So . . . . How can I have a serene experience if in 4 mos of training I do not have the physical stamina to handle this weight? (Because if training could have conditioned me it would have by now) So to answer my own question - I don't know. But if walking the Camino is a different experience than training in the hills around San Diego, I will soon find out. This is an adventure and a pilgrimage and I step out, after doing my best to prepare and put my life into the hands of a loving God. This is my first Camino and maybe I will have answers when I finish, but right now I step out in faith.
Debrita: Thank you for taking the time to write such an informative post.@Geri_San Diego , I read your post and wanted to just write a quick note back. First, I know how frustrating it must be to get to 9-10 miles (10 miles=16 kilometers, of course) and start experiencing pain. You are not out of the norm.
Hiking a distance with some weight on your back can be painful. I am going to just suggest a few ideas.
1. I'm short-waisted, and wear my pack a bit higher, but found that dropping my shoulder straps and ensuring that it was on my hips (waist straps) helped out. My hiking buddy helped with that, suggesting I drop the length down a bit.
2. Your core will strengthen after DAILY walks of many kilometers. My back is really a mess, but I found that 12-18 miles daily strengthened my back, shoulders and core to the degree that I quit having pain. And when I did? ADVIL.
Ibuprofen. Take what you take when there is pain, and you may also find that a little prophylactic medicine (before feeling pain) is helpful. Just hydrate, hydrate, hydrate. LOTS of water, girlfriend.
3. A serene experience? After a time, you will be walking along, and suddenly realize that you don't feel your pack on your pack. It's almost a transcendental experience when it happens. You have to put in daily miles before you feel that sensation, but it is like a hiker's high, an endorphin peace that makes you feel one with nature! You will get there.
4. You appear quite petite. I would like to suggest that you try HARD to shave an extra pound off your pack weight. What can you, could you, leave behind? In two amazing Camino journeys, I have come to realize that I don't need much. Just a thought.
5. Back to pack straps. Are you pulling in your straps located at your pectorals--front of chest--so that the pack hugs in snugly enough? Most women aren't super strong in the upper body --I'm just a football player, ha! It may be that you can take some weight off of your hips on occasion by adjusting those straps. Keep stretching too.
You will have to take it slowly at first and build up some "wow, this is an every-single-day-experience" with your body. Don't be frustrated with that body of yours! It will do what it can, and you will be fine. Go slowly for the first week, and do self-massage at night and good rest. Avoid drinking the full half-bottle of wine at night and opt for lots of water! (many will disagree on this point).
Buen Camino!
Debrita: Thank you for taking the time to write such an informative post.
1. I actually just started trying to wear my backpack a little lower than my waiste and I haven't noticed an improvement yet. But I have only done this for the last 2 days. I think I may only have one more walking day before I get on the plane due to my schedule and the rain.
2. I do hope my core strength will get better on the Camino. The problem is not necessarily the pain, it is a weakness . The other day as I was a mile from home I wanted to take the backpack off and carry it in my arms but it was too heavy so I hung it over one shoulder than the other just wanting so badly for "it" to be over. The pain or weakness goes away soon after I get rid of the backpack and do some stretches.
3. This gives me real hope. Thank you.
4. This is my dilemma , I don't know.
5. Pulled as tightly as they can be pulled, there is still space between my shoulders and the shoulder straps. I am going backto REI today for the 3rd time and see if they have any suggestions.
Again, thank you so much-your #3 comment was most encouraging!
Absolutely. And Geri, really analyze what you're taking. As an example, I always ended up wearing work-out tights, but was packing a pair of quick-dry trousers. I would have been better off losing that weight.
Also, I carried a headlamp, a cellphone, and a small flashlight. Headlamp could have stayed home.
I packed too much soap and shampoo. Just ONE good small bar of soap will be fine.
My medication tray weighed too much, but I thought packing meds would be good: should have used the tiny plastic bags and marked them AM or PM.
Thanks again for those suggestions - I'll see what may apply, like do I really need my head lamp?Absolutely. And Geri, really analyze what you're taking. As an example, I always ended up wearing work-out tights, but was packing a pair of quick-dry trousers. I would have been better off losing that weight.
Also, I carried a headlamp, a cellphone, and a small flashlight. Headlamp could have stayed home.
I packed too much soap and shampoo. Just ONE good small bar of soap will be fine.
My medication tray weighed too much, but I thought packing meds would be good: should have used the tiny plastic bags and marked them AM or PM.
I found out the hard way that I wasn't doing this correctly. It made a big difference when I had them adjusted properly!5. Back to pack straps. Are you pulling in your straps located at your pectorals--front of chest--so that the pack hugs in snugly enough?
I wonder what is correct - they are as tight as I can make them and there is a still a space between my shoulders and the straps. But . . . I am going to REI this morning, we'll see what they say. Thanks for your post.I found out the hard way that I wasn't doing this correctly. It made a big difference when I had them adjusted properly!
Well thanks to all of you above that commented. My backpack was NOT fitted correctly. This is the third time I have gone to REI complaining, but this time instead of a man fitting me it was a woman. (This is not a complaint, just explaining) This time, because she WAS a woman, she actually touched my hip bones instead of asking me if it was my hip bones. My hip bones are so close to my lower rib I often am not sure myself. (weird) Anyhow, she shortened the torso and DID adjust the top straps that bring the backpack closer to the body. My last long hike in San Diego is Monday, I guess I will know then. My next hike is Friday in SJPP. Buen Camino all. I appreciated all your suggestions and help.
Good perspective, thanks. I thought of my upcoming Camino walk in September as just another trip in the beginning. Now that it's only 5 months away I'm worried about all the things you listed as well. Must just be part of the anticipation. Biking season is just around the corner so I'll focus on that and let my Camino.... Just happen.I never thought of myself as an over-controlling person or one who tries to complicate the heck out of situations...this journey I'm about to take may prove that to be a false view of self. (taking my 1st camino May/June of 2016)
I have worried, fussed over, fretted, been fearful, anxious, and definitely over analyzepacthink about the thousands of pilgrims before modern times who made this trek
1) without the aid of 'special footwear', cell phones, GPS, top of the line backpacks and gear, etc..
2) without wicking/quick dry clothing
3) no ability to tap into the experience of others on a daily basis - who by the way offer constant assurance and support that things will be okay
4) did not have the comfort of knowing there is always transportation on hand if needed, or means to send the pack ahead
5) no ability to stay in contact with family and friends - on a daily basis if desired
6) did not have guaranteed accommodations out of the elements
7) did not have the luxury and assurance that a hot meal awaited them at the end of each days jaunt.
8) had to endure the fear that they may actually get killed because of taking this pilgrimage.
9) who had to walk ALL THE WAY BACK home once arriving in Santiago.
When I think of these things I become irritated with my thinking and feel like such a lightweight in comparison to those brave people. I am not trying to "beat myself up" I am just trying to gain some perspective with this whole overanalyzing, self-absorbed thought process I seem to engage in about this journey.
I am beginning to bore myself with it!
I think I will get busy with some volunteer activities I used to do...get out of my own head for awhile.
Well thanks to all of you above that commented. My backpack was NOT fitted correctly. This is the third time I have gone to REI complaining, but this time instead of a man fitting me it was a woman. (This is not a complaint, just explaining) This time, because she WAS a woman, she actually touched my hip bones instead of asking me if it was my hip bones. My hip bones are so close to my lower rib I often am not sure myself. (weird) Anyhow, she shortened the torso and DID adjust the top straps that bring the backpack closer to the body. My last long hike in San Diego is Monday, I guess I will know then. My next hike is Friday in SJPP. Buen Camino all. I appreciated all your suggestions and help.
I'm heading out on May 12 from SJPP and will be on the "Way" from the 12th of May to the 21st of June. We may meet each other.I think I've found a soul sister!! I "overthink" everything and all the time...but, to me it's not overthinking, it's just thought provoking points and your list is a way to honor those who have lived and gone before us. One day 100 years from now new pilgrims might think about us and say, "can you believe they walked this entire way without using a jetpack!" I'm from Ohio and will be on the Camino May/June 2016 as well. I will look for you and we can overthink things together!!
I found a really small lightweight torch was enough to find my way to the toilet at night. Headtorches can be quite annoying for other people when they shine in your eyes in the early morning when people are doing their packing. I also have a torch on my mobile phone that I did use occasionally too.Thanks again for those suggestions - I'll see what may apply, like do I really need my head lamp?
I never thought of myself as an over-controlling person or one who tries to complicate the heck out of situations...this journey I'm about to take may prove that to be a false view of self. (taking my 1st camino May/June of 2016)
I have worried, fussed over, fretted, been fearful, anxious, and definitely over analyzed everything about this trip.
When I think about the thousands of pilgrims before modern times who made this trek
1) without the aid of 'special footwear', cell phones, GPS, top of the line backpacks and gear, etc..
2) without wicking/quick dry clothing
3) no ability to tap into the experience of others on a daily basis - who by the way offer constant assurance and support that things will be okay
4) did not have the comfort of knowing there is always transportation on hand if needed, or means to send the pack ahead
5) no ability to stay in contact with family and friends - on a daily basis if desired
6) did not have guaranteed accommodations out of the elements
7) did not have the luxury and assurance that a hot meal awaited them at the end of each days jaunt.
8) had to endure the fear that they may actually get killed because of taking this pilgrimage.
9) who had to walk ALL THE WAY BACK home once arriving in Santiago.
When I think of these things I become irritated with my thinking and feel like such a lightweight in comparison to those brave people. I am not trying to "beat myself up" I am just trying to gain some perspective with this whole overanalyzing, self-absorbed thought process I seem to engage in about this journey.
I am beginning to bore myself with it!
I think I will get busy with some volunteer activities I used to do...get out of my own head for awhile.
Hi Angie.I never thought of myself as an over-controlling person or one who tries to complicate the heck out of situations...this journey I'm about to take may prove that to be a false view of self. (taking my 1st camino May/June of 2016)
I have worried, fussed over, fretted, been fearful, anxious, and definitely over analyzed everything about this trip.
When I think about the thousands of pilgrims before modern times who made this trek
1) without the aid of 'special footwear', cell phones, GPS, top of the line backpacks and gear, etc..
2) without wicking/quick dry clothing
3) no ability to tap into the experience of others on a daily basis - who by the way offer constant assurance and support that things will be okay
4) did not have the comfort of knowing there is always transportation on hand if needed, or means to send the pack ahead
5) no ability to stay in contact with family and friends - on a daily basis if desired
6) did not have guaranteed accommodations out of the elements
7) did not have the luxury and assurance that a hot meal awaited them at the end of each days jaunt.
8) had to endure the fear that they may actually get killed because of taking this pilgrimage.
9) who had to walk ALL THE WAY BACK home once arriving in Santiago.
When I think of these things I become irritated with my thinking and feel like such a lightweight in comparison to those brave people. I am not trying to "beat myself up" I am just trying to gain some perspective with this whole overanalyzing, self-absorbed thought process I seem to engage in about this journey.
I am beginning to bore myself with it!
I think I will get busy with some volunteer activities I used to do...get out of my own head for awhile.
Hope our path crosses Debra ~ we will represent Ohio with humility and gratitude (and hopefully not with blisters and tendonitis!I'm from Ohio and will be on the Camino May/June 2016 as well. I will look for you and we can overthink things together!!
Hello Angie,I never thought of myself as an over-controlling person or one who tries to complicate the heck out of situations...this journey I'm about to take may prove that to be a false view of self. (taking my 1st camino May/June of 2016)
I have worried, fussed over, fretted, been fearful, anxious, and definitely over analyzed everything about this trip.
When I think about the thousands of pilgrims before modern times who made this trek
1) without the aid of 'special footwear', cell phones, GPS, top of the line backpacks and gear, etc..
2) without wicking/quick dry clothing
3) no ability to tap into the experience of others on a daily basis - who by the way offer constant assurance and support that things will be okay
4) did not have the comfort of knowing there is always transportation on hand if needed, or means to send the pack ahead
5) no ability to stay in contact with family and friends - on a daily basis if desired
6) did not have guaranteed accommodations out of the elements
7) did not have the luxury and assurance that a hot meal awaited them at the end of each days jaunt.
8) had to endure the fear that they may actually get killed because of taking this pilgrimage.
9) who had to walk ALL THE WAY BACK home once arriving in Santiago.
When I think of these things I become irritated with my thinking and feel like such a lightweight in comparison to those brave people. I am not trying to "beat myself up" I am just trying to gain some perspective with this whole overanalyzing, self-absorbed thought process I seem to engage in about this journey.
I am beginning to bore myself with it!
I think I will get busy with some volunteer activities I used to do...get out of my own head for awhile.
Well said and spot on! couldn't agree more...Hello Angie, you're off sooner than me, but what I think we're both worrying about is the fear of the Unknown. What we will be embarking on is so far out of our comfort zones and everyday life than the only thing we can control before we leave is the planning and organising.
Fast007 here. Elizabeth and I from MN hope to see you both on the Camino. Arriving in SJPdP on April 29. I'm glad for the time we spent preparing but anxious to get going and living itHope our path crosses Debra ~ we will represent Ohio with humility and gratitude (and hopefully not with blisters and tendonitis!
Buen Camino!! won't be long now...
How wonderful and what fun! so glad you are having a good experienceI met Ivar and SYates and its been amazing meeting people face to face.
Thank you, Angie. Wish you were hereHow wonderful and what fun! so glad you are having a good experience
I love your post and just know that you are going to have a wonderful Camino. Can I suggest 2 things (which you may well have already thought of): 1) I'm a terrible over analyser myself (so renowned for it had been remembered in Santiago for 38 years). Try to step out with a clear mind without "how I want my Camino to be". Let it come round the corner to you, over the bridge, out from the woods - you can't see magic by looking straight at it. 2) as well as thinking about the thousands of pilgrims who travelled through it, think (look, listen, smell, touch) about the people whose land you are walking through. This is their land, their Patron saint, their culture and there are other stories there.
I never thought of myself as an over-controlling person or one who tries to complicate the heck out of situations...this journey I'm about to take may prove that to be a false view of self. (taking my 1st camino May/June of 2016)
I have worried, fussed over, fretted, been fearful, anxious, and definitely over analyzed everything about this trip.
When I think about the thousands of pilgrims before modern times who made this trek
1) without the aid of 'special footwear', cell phones, GPS, top of the line backpacks and gear, etc..
2) without wicking/quick dry clothing
3) no ability to tap into the experience of others on a daily basis - who by the way offer constant assurance and support that things will be okay
4) did not have the comfort of knowing there is always transportation on hand if needed, or means to send the pack ahead
5) no ability to stay in contact with family and friends - on a daily basis if desired
6) did not have guaranteed accommodations out of the elements
7) did not have the luxury and assurance that a hot meal awaited them at the end of each days jaunt.
8) had to endure the fear that they may actually get killed because of taking this pilgrimage.
9) who had to walk ALL THE WAY BACK home once arriving in Santiago.
When I think of these things I become irritated with my thinking and feel like such a lightweight in comparison to those brave people.
I never thought of myself as an over-controlling person or one who tries to complicate the heck out of situations...this journey I'm about to take may prove that to be a false view of self. (taking my 1st camino May/June of 2016)
I have worried, fussed over, fretted, been fearful, anxious, and definitely over analyzed everything about this trip.
When I think about the thousands of pilgrims before modern times who made this trek
1) without the aid of 'special footwear', cell phones, GPS, top of the line backpacks and gear, etc..
2) without wicking/quick dry clothing
3) no ability to tap into the experience of others on a daily basis - who by the way offer constant assurance and support that things will be okay
4) did not have the comfort of knowing there is always transportation on hand if needed, or means to send the pack ahead
5) no ability to stay in contact with family and friends - on a daily basis if desired
6) did not have guaranteed accommodations out of the elements
7) did not have the luxury and assurance that a hot meal awaited them at the end of each days jaunt.
8) had to endure the fear that they may actually get killed because of taking this pilgrimage.
9) who had to walk ALL THE WAY BACK home once arriving in Santiago.
When I think of these things I become irritated with my thinking and feel like such a lightweight in comparison to those brave people. I am not trying to "beat myself up" I am just trying to gain some perspective with this whole overanalyzing, self-absorbed thought process I seem to engage in about this journey.
I am beginning to bore myself with it!
I think I will get busy with some volunteer activities I used to do...get out of my own head for awhile.
I think you touch a tender point here and one thing to consider is that the pilgrims of yesteryear were penitents , they suffered and that was part of the idea. I don't know when these pilgrimages turned into a fad but by looking at the statistics in 1985 there was 650 pilgrims and now that number is a couple hundred thousand.
I think you touch a tender point here and one thing to consider is that the pilgrims of yesteryear were penitents , they suffered and that was part of the idea. I don't know when these pilgrimages turned into a fad but by looking at the statistics in 1985 there was 650 pilgrims and now that number is a couple hundred thousand. Pilgrimages as a default are meant to be a time of reflectiveness, Christian ones like the one of the Camino are suppose to be Christ centered and this gets lost when the multitudes are out for a walking holiday. The gadgetry is the biggest black hole for stealing people's attention I deal with this all the time as a guide and when possible I put an end to it.
For me, "gadgetry" are tools, and tools are what the user is doing with them: it can be for the better as it can be for the worse. But it still the user who decide the usage, not the tool.I think you touch a tender point here and one thing to consider is that the pilgrims of yesteryear were penitents , they suffered and that was part of the idea. I don't know when these pilgrimages turned into a fad but by looking at the statistics in 1985 there was 650 pilgrims and now that number is a couple hundred thousand. Pilgrimages as a default are meant to be a time of reflectiveness, Christian ones like the one of the Camino are suppose to be Christ centered and this gets lost when the multitudes are out for a walking holiday. The gadgetry is the biggest black hole for stealing people's attention I deal with this all the time as a guide and when possible I put an end to it.
For me, "gadgetry" are tools, and tools are what the user is doing with them: it can be for the better as it can be for the worse. But it still the user who decide the usage, not the tool.
You make an excellent pointI never thought of myself as an over-controlling person or one who tries to complicate the heck out of situations...this journey I'm about to take may prove that to be a false view of self. (taking my 1st camino May/June of 2016)
I have worried, fussed over, fretted, been fearful, anxious, and definitely over analyzed everything about this trip.
When I think about the thousands of pilgrims before modern times who made this trek
1) without the aid of 'special footwear', cell phones, GPS, top of the line backpacks and gear, etc..
2) without wicking/quick dry clothing
3) no ability to tap into the experience of others on a daily basis - who by the way offer constant assurance and support that things will be okay
4) did not have the comfort of knowing there is always transportation on hand if needed, or means to send the pack ahead
5) no ability to stay in contact with family and friends - on a daily basis if desired
6) did not have guaranteed accommodations out of the elements
7) did not have the luxury and assurance that a hot meal awaited them at the end of each days jaunt.
8) had to endure the fear that they may actually get killed because of taking this pilgrimage.
9) who had to walk ALL THE WAY BACK home once arriving in Santiago.
When I think of these things I become irritated with my thinking and feel like such a lightweight in comparison to those brave people. I am not trying to "beat myself up" I am just trying to gain some perspective with this whole overanalyzing, self-absorbed thought process I seem to engage in about this journey.
I am beginning to bore myself with it!
I think I will get busy with some volunteer activities I used to do...get out of my own head for awhile.
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