Kerstinh47
Active Member
- Time of past OR future Camino
- Camino Frances 16 May - 29 June, 2014
Hi
Tonight I find myself looking back over my day - full of making sure I have life's details worked out as an individual, a wife, and a parent (I'm leaving for my solo/1st camino in 5 days time) and I'm feeling so scattered! It's not 'like' me to feel like this. I want to (& imagined I would) feel prepared, confident, and peaceful at this point - yet I find I am worrying about minutia.....will the plants get a drink of water, will the icky things get cleared out of the nether regions of the refrigerator while I'm away....as well as the profound; have I left myself time and space not for packing and weighing and worrying, but for spiritual reflection and guidance before I begin the physical and emotional journey I'm so close to getting started on? Like a dream in which I've prepared for a big moment, only to find that I've taken the spotlight in my undies....I'm feeling vulnerable.
It's funny how I can stress about what will be out of my control at home while I'm away- yet not have purchased a ticket from Paris to St Jean Pied de Port on Thursday and I think that'll work itself out.
So, all forum-hugs accepted and pre-camino-jitter-stories welcome....
Scattered yet ready- Kerstin.
Tonight I find myself looking back over my day - full of making sure I have life's details worked out as an individual, a wife, and a parent (I'm leaving for my solo/1st camino in 5 days time) and I'm feeling so scattered! It's not 'like' me to feel like this. I want to (& imagined I would) feel prepared, confident, and peaceful at this point - yet I find I am worrying about minutia.....will the plants get a drink of water, will the icky things get cleared out of the nether regions of the refrigerator while I'm away....as well as the profound; have I left myself time and space not for packing and weighing and worrying, but for spiritual reflection and guidance before I begin the physical and emotional journey I'm so close to getting started on? Like a dream in which I've prepared for a big moment, only to find that I've taken the spotlight in my undies....I'm feeling vulnerable.
It's funny how I can stress about what will be out of my control at home while I'm away- yet not have purchased a ticket from Paris to St Jean Pied de Port on Thursday and I think that'll work itself out.
So, all forum-hugs accepted and pre-camino-jitter-stories welcome....
Scattered yet ready- Kerstin.