Erik,
A very Happy New Year to you and Dagny.
Several of you have welcomed me back and that's given me pause.
Why have I been away so long and why return now?
I wrote an entry soon after I completed my Camino in May. At best, it rambled on about being less than I thought I'd be...for any number of reason.
I'm on the email list for at least two other "Camino" related groups and I although I’d receive an email on a very limited occasion...I'd read it, but not respond. Mermaidlili is also a member of one in particular. As I was getting my act back together, I responded to one that really moved me in a way I'm not accustomed to...it made me emotional. Now, I'll not say I'm without emotion...I just have a difficult time emoting and, when I do...it's a gusher!
About a month ago, Sil responded to something I'd written on one of these email groups and then in quick succession Deirdre also chimed in. As a shot from above, I found myself missing the back and forth banter...the discussions on theology or this piece of equipment or that, or most importantly the individual searching for the Way.
Not only did I realize there was something and someone out there that gave a ding dong about me, but there was a whole new batch (Class of 2009) of 'soon to bes' that may benefit from my experiences as the Camino molded me into its twisted, but beautiful image. I am still being twisted, but in a good way.
Sil will remember, that nearly a year ago...to this day...I was so despondent that the down button on the elevator read…the “pit”. Being alone is a common thread of mine, but no more.
The Camino reinvigorated my belief in my Church, strengthened my deep love for my children and rekindled their love for me and, demonstrated that there are folks out there…many on this Forum, and others, that see not a loner, but a doer…for all the right reasons.
If I have any regret, it’s not meeting up with Rebekah as I’d promised for a fantastic meal and even better vinotinto…or blanco…I’m there. And, I will return and maybe baste that hunk of meat she spoke about. My lovely wife was a South African, so I know how to braai.
God Bless you every one and all!
Arn