Why is so hard? I just can't believe i posted some post about not to be afraid of walking Camino. But now - it is just the same as it was before my first camino:
I'm afraid. A lot. Sometimes i think i should stay at home. But i know i'll be sorry for rest of my life.
I think its better just forgot that i'm going to camino in 9 days, then ask someone to put me on the plane and... Camino will provide.
Ah...
I was afraid of flight.
I was afraid of being alone.
I was afraid I'll go to the wrong
I was afraid not to find yellow arrows.
I was afraid not to find albergue.
I was afraid of people (What if somebody hurt me? Who will help me?)
I was afraid of sun.
I was afraid of bulls.
I was afraid of pain.
I was afraid I will not reach Santiago.
I was afraid of Meseta (i didnt sleep two days before Meseta, it was night mare for me - but now - its the most beautiful place on Camino)
Acctually, i was afraid of everything.
Sometimes it was really horrible before my Camino. I think i didn't sleep for a month. It seemed to me like I jumped into the abyss and i'll die.
But i didn't. I made it all the way to Santiago.
I'm afraid. A lot. Sometimes i think i should stay at home. But i know i'll be sorry for rest of my life.
I think its better just forgot that i'm going to camino in 9 days, then ask someone to put me on the plane and... Camino will provide.
Ah...