- Time of past OR future Camino
- CF 2013, CF from Lourdes 2015, CP Porto 2022
I've been on the Forum a while and you all have been very kind and supportive.
So now I would like some advice.
I plan to do CF #2 starting, again, in late May. This time, I am thinking of starting in Lourdes, walking to SJPdP, then continuing "as usual."
But I'm nervous. As I wrote on my blog, it's good that I know what to expect. But it's also bad that I know what to expect.
I had such a wonderful experience on the CF that first time. I gained a Camino family, members of which I remain in close contact to this day. I have been blessed by people asking me to share my experiences and have been able to see my accomplishment through their admiring eyes.
But there were times on the Camino when I didn't want to put one foot in front of the other, especially towards the end. The mountain was too steep, my fellow pilgrims too annoying. My dark secret.
I don't need advice to "keep it up, you can do it," etc. I've told too many people that I'm doing it, to turn back now (yes, I told people on purpose so I wouldn't be able to back out). And I WANT to do it.
But I'm afraid (there's the crux of the matter) that it is going to be harder than the first time - I'm two years older - and not as fulfilling.
Normal fear is not being balanced with the happy excitement of the first time. Am I the only one who felt this way before their second/third time on the Camino?
So now I would like some advice.
I plan to do CF #2 starting, again, in late May. This time, I am thinking of starting in Lourdes, walking to SJPdP, then continuing "as usual."
But I'm nervous. As I wrote on my blog, it's good that I know what to expect. But it's also bad that I know what to expect.
I had such a wonderful experience on the CF that first time. I gained a Camino family, members of which I remain in close contact to this day. I have been blessed by people asking me to share my experiences and have been able to see my accomplishment through their admiring eyes.
But there were times on the Camino when I didn't want to put one foot in front of the other, especially towards the end. The mountain was too steep, my fellow pilgrims too annoying. My dark secret.
I don't need advice to "keep it up, you can do it," etc. I've told too many people that I'm doing it, to turn back now (yes, I told people on purpose so I wouldn't be able to back out). And I WANT to do it.
But I'm afraid (there's the crux of the matter) that it is going to be harder than the first time - I'm two years older - and not as fulfilling.
Normal fear is not being balanced with the happy excitement of the first time. Am I the only one who felt this way before their second/third time on the Camino?