Yellowfriend
Active Member
- Time of past OR future Camino
- Porto- Santiago / Fisterra- Muxia sept 2016
SJPP- Santiago may 2017planninh
I walked from SJPP to Burgos, first week with my husband then alone. The scenery was beautiful and the walking went fine. Physicly everything was oké. But I felt alone, though I met some nice people, I enjoyed the diners together. I slept in privaterooms because I got a kind of panic attack in the first albergue I tried, I got the bed in the middle and could not handle it. Saw very few solo walkers, most were together or in a group. Walked 4 days alone and then I think there was a turningpoint? Also stress with the prebookings , had some bad experiences with hotels, so when I started the day and was walking I felt fine and enjoyed but when the time came to go to the sleepingplace I got a bit nervous. Maybe I was too sensitive for the atmosphere in the privaterooms, or the change everyday where to wake up... Finally I stayed 2 nights in Burgos, to give myself some time to think.. went to the laundry and this same day I booked a ticket home. Felt very very sad why.... Am at home now and still don't understand quite well why I was not feeling happy and enjoying the camino. Maybe too big expactations? Felt like being on the wrong time on the wrong place. But keep thinking about it what was it why I felt this way??? Does anyone recognise this feelings? Or is Burgos kind of turning point?
One morning I woke up in Santa Domingo and first thing I heard was the sound of all the walkingpoles and that was at that moment not nice at all, it was irritating me, and all the camino rituals too. So didn't understand myself at all...
Thank you for reading...I feel really guilty that I didn't enjoy more and finish my camino and my dream...
One morning I woke up in Santa Domingo and first thing I heard was the sound of all the walkingpoles and that was at that moment not nice at all, it was irritating me, and all the camino rituals too. So didn't understand myself at all...
Thank you for reading...I feel really guilty that I didn't enjoy more and finish my camino and my dream...