- Time of past OR future Camino
- Recent:Norte/Muxia- Spring '23
MadridWay- Fall '23
Hello all,
I'm not having a very good day. It is 45°F, extremely windy and raining on and off so I've been cooped up inside, which has not helped my mood.
I was very disappointed, not "devastated", (oh no, not me), when my Spring camino to leave on April 19th was canceled. I'd been gone from home every spring for five years straight on these most special adventures in my retirement and they have each been the highlight of that particular year, surpassing all other planned vacations.
This time I was bringing two newbie family members and had everything planned out ahead of time. At first, I tried to accept this loss, but now I am starting to plummet. I feel sad, in a funk, flat, and unmotivated. Heck, I'm supposed to be nearly ten days into my walk in Spain as I type this. I still walk three miles most days on my local trail, but have no desire to increase the distance like I usually did with enthusiasm during the month before I was set to depart.
I have a really good, easy life at home and I do not live alone, but I miss getting together with my girlfriends for lunch out or to exercise with them. I'm sure all this self isolation is contributing to my melancholy feelings.
I want to say that I truly admire those of you who are participating on the varying threads by walking virtual caminos, zoom meetings, and even researching obscure locations in the movie "The Way". I wish I were enthused in the same way as many of you are, but I am not.
I guess I'm having a pity party today and feeling kind of "lost", and yes, I know I am acting spoiled and have a selfish outlook... maybe tomorrow will be better.
I do not usually share a depressed side of who I am, especially on a public forum, but oh well, today I am and you are my Camino family. Thankfully I am not normally given to despair like this. I hope my camino walking days will not be permanently over. I know there are others who most likely share some similar feelings, so know I am not the only one...we all are feeling some loss of varying degrees.
Thanks for listening.
I'm not having a very good day. It is 45°F, extremely windy and raining on and off so I've been cooped up inside, which has not helped my mood.
I was very disappointed, not "devastated", (oh no, not me), when my Spring camino to leave on April 19th was canceled. I'd been gone from home every spring for five years straight on these most special adventures in my retirement and they have each been the highlight of that particular year, surpassing all other planned vacations.
This time I was bringing two newbie family members and had everything planned out ahead of time. At first, I tried to accept this loss, but now I am starting to plummet. I feel sad, in a funk, flat, and unmotivated. Heck, I'm supposed to be nearly ten days into my walk in Spain as I type this. I still walk three miles most days on my local trail, but have no desire to increase the distance like I usually did with enthusiasm during the month before I was set to depart.
I have a really good, easy life at home and I do not live alone, but I miss getting together with my girlfriends for lunch out or to exercise with them. I'm sure all this self isolation is contributing to my melancholy feelings.
I want to say that I truly admire those of you who are participating on the varying threads by walking virtual caminos, zoom meetings, and even researching obscure locations in the movie "The Way". I wish I were enthused in the same way as many of you are, but I am not.
I guess I'm having a pity party today and feeling kind of "lost", and yes, I know I am acting spoiled and have a selfish outlook... maybe tomorrow will be better.
I do not usually share a depressed side of who I am, especially on a public forum, but oh well, today I am and you are my Camino family. Thankfully I am not normally given to despair like this. I hope my camino walking days will not be permanently over. I know there are others who most likely share some similar feelings, so know I am not the only one...we all are feeling some loss of varying degrees.
Thanks for listening.
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